i realised ive been saying lots of -i dont know whys- in my prev posts. isnt it funny sometimes how we cannot answer our own questions? even the simplest of questions lack an answer. humans are soo complicated.

i wonder if you've ever tried to listen to someone's problems when that person is the one who is your problem. it's pretty tough because on one side, you have to battle with your own feelings and on the other, you have to listen with an open mind, offer advice, feel neutral. most people would end up in a state of confusion. i am no exception. i find it really difficult to pretend im alright, act like everything's ok and smile like nothing's wrong. i feel oppressed. i really do. but no one's there to listen. i think i only have myself to blame because i dont wanna open up to people. oh wells, you cant blame me. once bitten twice shy.

IM PREACHING. omfg. i shall stop. trying to finish Passage A of my english and then i'l go to bed. meeting the clique at bbatok control station tomorrow at one30pm. i wonder what plans they have up their sleeves. im soo curious ok. its alright. i'l know tomorrow. (: i love being the birthday girl !

nights people,